By the Grace of God Go I
Life can deal a whammy and riptide, or two or three your way, but it's not the whammy or the riptide that's the issue, but how you handle and navigate it. I have had my share of whammies and riptides from my parents' very nasty divorce to being caught in the middle of family tug of war after to the aftermath of that and what it did to my self esteem, rebellion and sin from my rebellious attitude, falling into humanism the aftermath of that, to health issues. The Lord never gave up on me, on bringing me to truth and setting me free.
As I deal with Celiac, it seems I may also be dealing with a secondary problem, a particular type of anemia that hits those of Mediterranean descent. Ever since I was a child, I have had bouts of anemia and issues with low iron, vitamin and protein, and fatigue. Now seems I have very low iron, high glucose and am crashing almost every day from high levels of fatigue. The doctor is now trying a combination of iron and vitamin C, and I am on a strict gluten free, dairy free, and now sugar free diet to try and get me on track. I have to say, it is not fun, or very tasty, but the gluten free, and dairy free is making me feel better and we will see what happens with the iron and vitamin C, as well as sugar free aspect of things. If in six weeks, when my blood tests are taken again, show little or no improvement in the iron, protein, and glucose levels, then a special genetic test for this particular type of anemia has to be done and I may need regular periodic blood and IV vitamin and mineral transfusions. Not fun, but I am believing the Lord for healing and that all will turn out as is his will. In addition to all this, I have to get injections periodically in my knees for my arthritis, and in my neck for pain, due to a fall that herniated a disc. Yet, I am at total peace with it and believing that my healing is mine and at the right time will manifest in the physical realm, as God wills.
Then there is my book, which I am sure my publisher is doing their best to get edited and ready to get to me with the artwork as soon as possible. I sent them the rough manuscript last Summer I believe it was, but the Lord really has given me a great peace now to let go, put it in his hands as to when it all comes to fruition and how. The same with my music, some songs which have already been licensed, and which I am sure I will see royalties from soon. I have faith that I will be able to see substantial royalties soon, which I will then invest into the ministry, to share in greater measure the Message of the Cross, and also into creating more professional recordings of the songs given to me by the Holy Spirit. I have peace and am learning more and more each day to let go, to bring all to the Cross and to Christ, so it can all go according to the will of the Father, in Christ and by the power of the Holy Spirit. It's not easy, but it does feel a lot lighter, than working in the flesh, as we can do nothing of ourselves truly, but can do all if we are in him.
Shalom and Amen.
I came that they might have life After writing 24 poems trying to understand the spiritual element of Glen Gould's playing, I find that I might as well start from the beginning. There just aren't any words for the power this music has, the power to completely take a person outside of this world. From the outside, his mannerisms can seem off-putting, but when you get swept up into his music and get used to him, it starts to make sense. People sometimes assume he was being a showman, but that would be contrary to everything Glen Gould stood for. I don't think he was mad or autistic either, just very intense at each moment he was playing.
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