Angry and Bitter At God?
As I tried to get out of bed, I knew I was in for another bad day, as last night, yesterday evening I had felt kind of lousy, with joint pain, upper and side abdominal pain. Didn't feel right, so I knew I was in for a bit of rough night.
Sure enough I was and when I woke up, I barely could stay awake and oriented to make breakfast at 10 am. I had to go back to bed and was out cold, to where the ceiling could have fallen on me and I would have not been aware. When I woke to finally be able to drag myself out of bed at around 2 pm to have lunch, my mouth had a bitter metallic taste and I still feel a off base. These crashes and the gluten and dairy free diet, all that comes with Celiac, Fibromyalgia is heavy load and I could be angry and bitter if I added this to the pain that my parents very bitter divorce created for me, those scars and the baggage that came with that. That would serve no purpose, would only make me even more ill, create poisons in my body and it would be in grave error, as the only one at fault here are Satan and the first humans who listened to him and brought sin, corruption into the world.
Satan and the first humans are the ones I should be angry and bitter at anyone it would be them, but then if I waste my time with angry and bitter, I would not be spending my time writing, ministering, creating. Being angry and bitter would be a true waste of time and would actually give into Satan and what he wants and that is not happening, so I praise God for the strength to sail past the obstacles and keep on doing my creative thing. My health may have ups and downs, but that's okay, as the shed blood of Christ covers me and the Holy Spirit gives me the inspiration to create, and to minister, for which I am very grateful.
Shalom and Amen
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