Pain Wont Keep Me From Resurrection

Pain Wont Keep Me Down

Life is a combination of sunlight, rain, rainbows, riptides, and you have to be able to navigate it all.  I have had to learn this with the Fibromyalgia, Celiac, and facing the possibility of having Thesalemia. 

I find myself in pain, even with the injections I get every few months, and sometimes just walking from one room to the next is an endeavor that can literally take my breath away due to the pain in my neck, side of my head, feet, knee, and/or my calf, especially my right one.  The bland gluten free, dairy free diet is not picnic either, and can really get on my nerves.  It's enough to make a person get totally discouraged, want to give up and say to heck with anything, don't even try to have a life, just give up.  Then I remember that I was created in God's image, the image of the Trinity, that this physical life is only temporary, that even Jesus had the agony in the Garden, and on the Cross at Calvary, and the Apostles had their agonies, but they stood firm in the faith, found great strength in knowing who they were, in that identity, that truth because it was and is still truth, The Truth of God, The One True God.  What does this mean for and to me?

This for me means a great deal, this identity and as I return to my Catholic faith, my roots,  I can identify with the cause of suffering, the sin nature, and the architect of brining sin into the world.  I can accept whatever pain etc... is thrown at me, and not ask "why me?", not that I ever did.  Since we are all affected by the sin nature etc... the real question is "why not me?"  My return to my Catholic roots and the Apostolic roots, the church of Christ, means I can accept the ups and downs of life, the roller coaster, and in whatever pain and such comes, see it as a way of coming closer to Christ, of identifying more closely with the Lord.  Not so say I wont ask for healing, but I understand that healing may not come in physical form, but in some other form, some subtle form that I may not even be aware of at that moment.  I can remain calm, breathe through the pain, reach out to the Father, Son, Holy Spirit, all the angels and Saints of heaven for help, and to all those in the Church here on earth.  When you have days, many days when you are crashing from constant fatigue and pain, you reach out to heaven because as a Christian you know the truth of where your healing and hope is found.  As a Catholic, you don't see the pain etc... as a punishment from God, but as part of life, a fallen world and something that even Jesus had to endure, and that can even temporarily bring you closer to the Lord.  In my pain, as I ask for healing, until it comes, I find solace and identification in the and with the Lord, the apostles and saints.

I plan to live an amazing life as an artist, travel, promote my projects, and as an ambassador of the faith, in spite of any pain life and Satan might throw my way.  This Easter, I plan on a total Resurrection and to take my life back, with the help of our Lord, who himself resurrected and was glorified to be with the Father.  My faith will not waiver and will always define who I am and my art in great measure and be the anchor in all my storms, for no human can ever be an everlasting anchor like the Father, Son and Holy Spirit, along with the angels and saints, though loyal, supportive friends are a great treasure to be appreciated and loved.

Shalom and Amen.

Shalom and Amen